A friend is someone
that is there for you no matter what. You will have a bond with that
person and sometimes you will find how much of a friend that person
was after it’s too late.
Recently I found out
that a person that I went to an event with each month passed away
suddenly and that is when it really hit me how much of a friend I
considered her. She was someone that I could talk to and laugh with
and it didn’t matter how I was feeling she was always there to help
me feel better about things. She always had a smile on her face even
when things weren’t going perfect for her.
Over the last few
days I am have thinking about her and remembering all the little
silly things that have happened when the two of us were together. No
we wouldn’t spend lots of time together but most months there were
the three or four hours where we could talk and laugh. Actually the
laughing was something that really did happen a lot and sometimes
over the silliest things which was great. When she wasn’t at the
event the laughs just didn’t seem to happen as freely and I know a
lot of others noticed it as well.
I saw her on the 8th
of February and of course we had the normal laughs and said we would
see each other next month which was March 8th. I later
found out that I wouldn’t be going to the event because of another
commitment but I knew that in April we would sit, talk and laugh like
normal. Now I am sitting and thinking about going in April and
realizing that it isn’t going to be the same but I will work on
making sure that I remember her in my own way because that is how I
am going to deal with the lose of her.
Since hearing of her
passing I have done quite a bit of thinking and remembering about all
of our silly conversations. Even when I am not really focused on the
overall thinking little things pop into my head and I smile and laugh
about them. The last time we saw each other we were discussing a
colour of fabric that I should use for a project that I was going to
start. I didn’t want to go too dark because I don’t know the
final design yet as it is a mystery but of course she was telling me
that I needed to go darker than I went. I have been working on this
project since hearing of her passing and while sitting and stitching
one evening I heard a voice say “You should have done it on black
and then it would have looked like a chalkboard.” This made me
smile because I could hear her saying that exact thing to me so now I
think I will do the project again on black so it will look like a
chalkboard.
Friends are there
for her no matter what and I know I am not the only one feeling the
lose as she had a couple of very close friends that I know are
dealing with it in their way. For me the time I spend stitching
right now is how I am dealing with her passing because stitching was
one of her passions and I know she would want me to keep stitching.